The thing is I don’t trust myself enough. And I battle in my head and can’t hold on to anything because I don’t trust myself. It’s because I can’t get myself to do something when I know it’s the right thing to do. When I’m pulled in the other direction, I give in.
How will I fix that? I need to be a better coach for myself. I will listen. I deserve to be listened to. I have wisdom inside and I will give it a chance. And please, Allah, help me gain my own trust as I know that trust will aid me in living the kind of life I want to live.
Have deeper conversations with yourself. And if you struggle with that, start conversations with others. Conversations shed so much light to what’s going on inside.