Reviving faith can be scary, especially as a beginner... especially as one who was not born into a religious family.
When I started my journey, and even now, I get scared. I get scared of all of the things I will have to let go. I'm afraid of big steps I will have to take. I'm afraid of losing out on experiences. I'm afraid of not getting as far in this world because of it. I'm afraid of all the limits that being a Muslim and living an Islamic life sets. At some point, I made myself get over it.
When rejecting temptations, I often tell myself, "That is not the kind of life I was meant for.
Allah has better plans for me." My WHY is much bigger than my fears. Allah is much bigger than my fears. When you choose to let go of fears, so many internal barriers and resistances melt away. And you see progress happen naturally. And you find yourself letting go of bad habits and adding on new good habits. It becomes a cycle of exponential development. The state of your iman is in your hands.
You have the freedom to make choices, praise be to Allah.
You have the ability to let go of little inconveniences to gain so much bigger: positive outlook in life (as you fully trust everything will be possible with Allah), peace of mind about where you are in life and where you are going, a stronger shield against the lows of life, and hope (with the power of dua.)
Let go of your fears. Don't worry so much about what you will have to give up. Focus instead on what you will gain.
You will stand towards the All-Powerful, All-Merciful, All-Knowing. There is no One more worthy of your sacrifices. 🌷Umeda