Eskimos have 50 words for 'snow.' Snow.
A simple, material thing you can touch, smell, feel. Our emotions are neither physical nor simple.
Often, we cannot find the words to describe them, let alone understand them.
Allah, on the other hand, watches our confused state knowing full well what is going on.
He has the words you are looking for.
He has the explanations.
He has the all encompassing understanding. Find fulfillment through sharing your feelings with Allah. No person will understand you better. No person will be able to give you the answers. No person will share your joys the same way. Do enjoy your friendships. They are gifts from Allah. But don't depend on them for answers. Depend that Allah will give you answers... through your friends or other means.